yesterday was a rough day for me. I slept like crap, tossing a turning all night and I must of got up several times. I just could not get comfortable. I was in so much pain and I just could not make it ease up any. I tried heat and cold. I took some Alieve (which usually works really well) and I tried to keep going. I know that if I give in to the pain it gets worse. I did not go to the gym as planned though, I just could not handle that. I went grocery shopping and did some laundry and cooking. All I really wanted to do was curl up in bed and sleep all day. I knew that not only would that not help with the pain but it would not help with the bipolar either. I have a tendency of disappearing in my room and ignoring all my responsibilities. I have had to keep to some type of schedule or it feels like my life will fall apart. My ex being in the house has made it so easy for me to give in and let him deal with everything. I have to fight that urge because then I will end up disappearing into my own world again. I don't want that and my family does not need that. Kids don't have school today and it is snowing like a son of bitch. It is amazing but I woke up feeling so much better today. It is only morning so we will see how the rest of the day goes. My son had a friend sleep over and the boy I babysit is here. The boy I watch is a troubled child and can be very difficult at times.